Psychoteddy16

so just finished my second semester of college about a week or so ago, so I just got around to finishing my second chapter, I currently think its crap so I plan on editing it a lot I just figured I could at least share what I have so that you guys don't forget about my story line I hope that I will have lots of time this summer to continue writing up better chapters as the story progresses ^_^ I have lots of ideas for making chapter two better and plenty of ideas for more chapters to come hope you guys enjoy

So this weekend I didn't work on anything like I thought I might. So the second chapter of my fan fiction isn't started yet, I thought I might have time to work on it while I was at Ohayocon. But turns out Ohayocon is to damn amazing for me to have any free time, next year I am thinking of dressing up in a costume as Elle hopefully I can convince my bf to be Mias >.>

well i don't really know what to say here, i put a few poems in my journal here because my laptop kinda sucks. won't let me upload any of my artwork or anything else into gallery XD i had to use a different laptop to get what i already have in there. Hopefully i will figure out why my laptop sucks so much XD

When i dream,
I dream of meadows
where butterflies made of crystal
dance on moonbeams.
Where faeries play
and spread silver dust everywhere.
Where sirens sing their enchanting songs.
When i dream
there is a stream flowing freely from a waterfall,
sparkling like a polished diamond.
Stars shine brilliantly against the midnight sky.
When i dream
there are two people,
one is me, one is you.
We're sitting in this place of beauty,
this place of dreams.
Holding each other never letting go,
but this is when i dream,
only when i dream...
and dreams dont always come true,
cause if they did i would never be away from you.
Because when i dream,
I don't notice the butterflies,
the faeries, the sirens.
The sky, the waterfall, the stream...
all the mystic stuff, it all fades away
all i can see is you.
This is when i dream,
only when i dream.

You wouldnt understand
these thoughts, these voices that i hear.
This crazy part of me.
The part of me that screams for you,
the part that begs for you.
You wouldnt understand that it's
insane, uncontrollable, intolerable,
unbalanced, and unstable.
It's far worse then i could ever be
yet it is me.
You wouldnt understand that
this part of myself burns, it pines, and it perishes
with thoughts only of you.
This part of me i barely recognize,
so different from how i thought i was, how i think i am.
This part of me that slowly dies you wouldn't understand
I'm a psychotic meltdown,
about to break, about to fall.
That part of me screeches
it wont shut up
screaming and screaming for you.
But you wouldn't understand cause to you
I'm crazy, psychotic, and unbalanced.
I'm an emotional freak of nature
to you I'm freaky and weird.
When the truth that you dont realize is that I'm just
insane